Psalm 62:8

"Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us." 

We are journeying through a season of faith with our finances. Sometimes our budget is so overwhelming I feel like I can't breathe. We budget, and we barely get our bills paid. Other than that- there just isn't enough extra money for things like school clothes, curriculum, tuition, birthdays, speeding tickets, and vacations. We sure don't have extra money for savings- which is super scary.  Our house is falling apart around us, and we are in the middle of a homeschooling room renovation that is moving slowly. We also have dental needs that can't even be thought about at this time. SO FRUSTRATING.

For the month of July we have worked extra and scrounged to cover school tuition and wrote the big check this week. Not even sure how much it will clear...thankful for overdraft protection. We know God has called us to these things, and so we know He will provide a way. He has proven Himself faithful.

For some reason this summer, I had to battle jealousy. I have found myself envious of those darn pictures on Facebook from numerous friends on vacation.  ALOT of our friends were in Colorado and posted every day a new picture of the mountains, the goodness, brag, brag, and the cooler weather. One "friend" wrote "sorry if all these mountain pictures are too much for you. Wait...no I'm not. They're amazing". It was at that moment I decided to just get off Facebook, twitter, and instagram... for they were only bringing me down.

I realized that this is a heart issue. Psalm 62:8 says "TRUST in Him at ALL times....pour out your heart before Him." I have poured out my heart before Him and have vented, cried, talked, complained, and strategized with Him. And I tell you, somehow I feel better afterwards. I have a peace come on me. I see little by little Him coming through to help cover all our needs, AND even supply for some of our wants.

I recently opened up my devotional and found this written by the Lord "Do not worry about tomorrow! This is not a suggestion, but a command. I divided time into days and nights, so that you would have manageable portions of life to handle. My grace is sufficient for you, but its sufficiency is for only one day at a time. When you worry about the future, you heap day upon day of troubles onto your flimsy frame. You stagger under this heavy load, which I never intended you to carry."  Yep- well put, I have such a flimsy frame. I simply cannot carry this. I must seek refuge in Him.